I was about 16 years old when the show "The Bachelor" started. I looked at those women and thought something to the effect of, "poor women who can't get married." Now when I watch the show, I see that some of these "poor women" are younger than I am! I'm freaking out about this for a couple of reasons. First of all, these women are telling stories of their past relationships and all of these men they've dated and how they are finally ready to settle down. Stop. Let's just focus for a minute on the fact that not only have I not had a serious relationship in my life at the age of 24 but I don't even have any prospects! The only person that's showed any interest in me in the last year is a 58 year old man that opens boxes for a living. (Okay maybe that's an exaggeration but I promise you it's only a slight exaggeration.) In the past year I've been told "there's just no spark" and came to the slow realization that there were not mutual feelings on the other end of a potential interest. (Who am I kidding, it wasn't a slow realization, it was just me in denial.) As far as I can tell, this leaves me with only 2 options. Option A: attend the 8 stake speed dating activity at my church set up for a bunch of people like myself that can't seem to find a mate. Exactly what I was hoping to do on February 13th. Or option B: move. I think option B is more likely to happen.
Another thing that scares me about that show is how beautiful these people are. Here I am waking up with a new pimple on my face everyday. I have permanent bags under my eyes because I don't get enough sleep since my restful nights are occupied by snoring instead of deep sleep. Seriously can't figure out what guy wouldn't want all this. I could go on and on but then I'll get all sorts of comments to the effect of "you're not that fat" or "well I think you're beautiful." Well thanks Dad but that's not going to help me get a date.
I'm not just sitting here complaining I promise. Last week I did something I never thought I'd do. I asked a guy out. (I've been known to say that when guys start having babies, I'll start asking guys out, so this was kind of a big deal.) I can't toot my own horn too much because really we're just friends so it was like any other time we've hung out together.
I'm not looking to audition for the bachelor any time soon, I'm just saying...
4 comments:
"Oh, it's not little!"
I would think that you living in Illinoise would help your perspective a little. Lots of poeple don't get married until they are 30 or later, just look at all the FRIENDS! If you're going to compare your life to a TV show, try that one instead. Only you would be better because you wouldn't have all the one night stands and getting married when your drunk, and babies out of wedlock...maybe you shouldn't compare your life to TV. I have known people in real life, however, that have not gotten married til ther're 30. You still have 6 years til you need to freak out. That's a long time! Maybe the speed dating would be fun. It kinda looked fun on "Hitch" except for the major fight that happened in the middle of it.
I'm just going to throw this out there, but I happen to know this awesome place that is warm with palm trees and beautiful blue sky. Oh, and single law school boys.
um... I asked Dan out. I wish he were having the babies! :)
Hang in there!
You're still so young, Ashlee. I didn't even move to New York until I was almost 25. I have some idea what you may be feeling, and I don't regret anything about the timing of finding someone. There are definitely things you can do, but I really think it's sort of out of your hands in a way.
Post a Comment